I have talked in other posts about being an accumulator, driven by the mania to buy things that I have no need for, nor will I ever use. A slight variation of this theme is the need to hoard.
How can accumulation be different from hoarding? It’s simple, it’s not simply the accumulation of things; it’s the hoarding of them in caches, stores, and never share them with anyone.
As well as accumulation, I hoard. I am loathe to throw anything away. I must have it there, in case I need it, sometime, anytime.
Files. Papers. Photographs. Gadgets. Their mine. All mine. Don’t touch them! Get out of my space!
It is another inexplicable part of the Bipolar. The manic need to keep it all close. To protect it from others. To keep them from taking your irrationally collected things.
Isn’t the mind a fun place?
2006-11-20 — 16:59
I do that too. Bit then I can switch just as rapidly and become “super efficient” at clearing things out. Becoming very minimalist in style. I take the whole thing that if it isn’t something beautiful or loved then I don’t need it.
I later realise that some things neither beautiful or loved ARE needed. (tools and kitchen equipment mainly)
This then becomes my excuse to have to buy NEW THINGS which I also DONT REALLY NEED and the whole crazy cycle starts again.
Its a bit mad.
But aren’t we all?
2006-11-20 — 16:59
I do that too. Bit then I can switch just as rapidly and become “super efficient” at clearing things out. Becoming very minimalist in style. I take the whole thing that if it isn’t something beautiful or loved then I don’t need it.I later realise that some things neither beautiful or loved ARE needed. (tools and kitchen equipment mainly)This then becomes my excuse to have to buy NEW THINGS which I also DONT REALLY NEED and the whole crazy cycle starts again.Its a bit mad.But aren’t we all?